Zeppo Revisited
AUTHOR: Leni
SUMMARY: Morning After & Other Fairytales. If Angel hadn't lost his soul, how would The
Zeppo have finished?
WORDCOUNT: ~4300
THANK YOU: to Kairos and Ares, for the great beta job!
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01:18 am.
i. a ride down the wild side
Buffy didn't know how her fellow Slayer dealt with this... feeling. The shiver
that ran down her body the moment the Sisterhood was vanquished, the delicious
taste of victory in the back of her tongue, with a tang of her own blood adding
a peculiar spice to the experience. Her skin sizzled with more than the burning
slashes from demon claws and weapons; her mind felt fuzzy, pleasantly enveloped
in a thick warmth that defied the clear-sighted logic of the battlefield.
She'd felt this before. The blast of energy as her stake struck true through
the undead's chest, that stolen second where she was mistress of the Hellmouth,
born and shaped into heights reserved for the deadliest predators. And through
the power, through the sheer amazement of being so other and still so
human, there was always the heat. From her fingertips to the beat of her heart,
from the flush in her cheeks to the tingle travelling up her thighs. Sometimes
it was a moment only, a guilty pleasure between one kill and the next.
Other times....
Other times it was the End of the World, and two girls standing between
disaster and the rest of humankind. Giles's frequent speech had been right; in
many ways, when the chips fell down, the Slayer walked alone. Even when two
Slayers fought back an incoming army, even when her friends were in the
background shouting incantations to close the portal, even when there was one
more fighting at her side… even when the school library was bursting with
activity, the Slayer focused on her own battle, her own fight for survival.
Movement became another weapon. Space was measured by the enemy's retreat. It
was more than everyday hunting, reaching beyond the limit between girl and
wildness, it peeled away the trappings of humanity: so fragile when the Slayer
needed all she was capable of to win a decisive battle.
It resonated in the depths of her. From beneath all she knew as Buffy Summers,
a familiar stranger prowled under her skin. Not warmth, not anymore. A blaze
razed her body, a unanimous silence of everything that wasn't the lethal dance
she played at the doorstep to hell.
Then it was over.
But not over.
Silence blurred into the moment when the danger was past, but other people's
voices still didn't register.
This moment.
Fire running along her nerves. A buzz in her ears. Her body vibrating with the
backlash of energy spent, the knowledge that there was more in the well she'd
dipped into. A well accessible to her in the purest form of Slayer she knew how
to be. The savior of the world, with the potential to burn it to ashes.
Too much power, and all of it in her fingertips.
No, Buffy had no idea how Kendra dealt with the feeling, and once language
returned to her, she never found the words to ask something that intimate.
"Buffy?"
A hand at her shoulder. Buffy recognized its weight before she turned her head
to look at him. "Everybody alright?"
Angel nodded.
There was something in his eyes, too, a hint of gold that refused to recede. As
if through a haze, Buffy remembered glimpses of his face throughout the fight,
the ferocity with which he'd repelled the Sisterhood demons, and how she'd
reminded herself not to aim for the vampire in the room. She tilted her head to
rub her cheek against the back of his hand, his knuckles moving up to caress
her face at the same time.
It should have been a shock of cold against her skin.
Instead it fanned flames that hadn't yet been doused. The feeling returned full
force; raw lightning along her spine, the beat of thunder in her chest, a slow
ache between her legs. It hit her so fast, she stifled a gasp before the others
could hear her. But something must have shown in her face, because
Angel's eyes glowed bright for a second and his grasp tightened on her
collarbone. She watched him lick his lips, and her body had moved closer to him
before she ordered it to do so.
Vampire and Slayer. In a corner of her mind, she understood why opposites must
attract. Beyond love and loyalty, deeper than sweet words and promises, there
was this. There would always be this.
Whatever it was.
They'd tasted it before. Kisses that went too far in the cemeteries, herself
pressed between a mausoleum wall and his body as she let him play with her, him
pinned against a solitary tree as she explored his mouth, tested their limits
with a nip against the soft skin of his neck. It felt almost, almost,
the same.
It felt like they'd walked through a summer day and now were caught in the
storm. Buffy paid no mind to her dirty clothes, or that her lower lip was still
bleeding and his tongue travelled freely over the spot. She didn't remember
where they were, or why they were there. She cared for nothing except that
after she'd closed the door on Death's face, she would wrench it back open if
he were on the other side.
"Guys?"
Angel broke the kiss first, and for a moment she hated him for it. But he kept
his arms around her, even if he gave her enough leverage to turn around if she
so wanted. Why would she want that?
"Um. I'm, um. Sorry to interrupt." Willow. Willow was there. And so
were the others. Oz and Wesley, Jenny and Kendra. Other people who hadn't yet
left the room. "You okay?" Willow asked.
Buffy turned around.
The expression on her face must have been answer enough, because the redhead
blushed and stuck her hands into the pockets of her coverall. "Right. You
are okay. You know? I'm done being Wesley's messenger." She nodded towards
the table where the Watcher was already settling with a notebook in one hand
and a pen in the other. "He said you could take your turn after Kendra had
hers."
"He did?" In times like this, she missed Giles the most. She'd never
appreciated his respect for her personal space until Wesley came to push and
crowd into it. Angel's hand came to rest on her bare abdomen, giving the skin a
slow caress that was probably meant to soothe but had the opposite effect. She
rested back against him, bending her head until her lips brushed the base of
his neck. "Mmmm. Stay or go." Angel didn't react one way or the
other, which was half of the battle won. She played dirty for the other half,
the tips of her nails grazing the nape of his neck. Buffy smiled against his
skin, then tilted her head for the kiss she knew was coming. A shorter one this
time, but his fingers were playing with the edge of her tank top when it ended.
"I'd say go."
Angel nodded in agreement, his eyes locked with hers.
"Wow," Willow breathed. When both turned toward her, her friend
actually took a step back, but a tentative smile appeared as they made no move
to follow her. "I could tell Wes to stop by your house tomorrow. Or. Wait,
no. You'll be at the mansion, won't you?" She didn't wait for an answer.
"I better tell him that you'll come by."
There was a reason Willow was her best friend. "Thanks, Will."
The redhead grinned back. "He'll be up with Kendra for the rest of the
night, probably. I suspect she likes to be grilled to the last detail."
Buffy looked over at the table, at the way Kendra held herself as she fulfilled
her duty and debriefed to the Hellmouth's Watcher. Stiff and hard-eyed, the
perfect picture of a Slayer after an arduous battle. But maybe too
stiff, Buffy thought as she and Angel began to make their way to the library
doors. Maybe Kendra's eyes were a little too hard, shutters thrown down
and sealed.
She couldn't imagine letting all this feeling disappear, couldn't imagine not
drawing on it as her hand sneaked under Angel's shirt, as she caressed his back
and remembered he was the prey she might let go if he asked - and he didn't.
She couldn't imagine losing the thrill, the accomplishment, the hunger for
more.
Crawford Street had never seemed so far away.
"We need to get Kendra a boyfriend," she muttered.
"Any particular reason?" Angel's voice sounded innocent, but his hand
moved down to the top of her jeans, brushed against her thin belt buckle before
drifting to her hip.
Forget Crawford Street.
She changed directions. "This way," Buffy said when he tugged her
towards the main doors. "The infirmary has a bed."
A day ago, an hour ago, he would have hesitated, maybe even protested
such a risky behavior - and she would have never suggested it. Instead he
squeezed her hip and matched her step, "You sure?"
"Hell, yes."
Angel laughed. "You're such a romantic when you save the world."
She pivoted in his arms, her intention clear as they walked back into a wall.
She kissed him, hard. Hands digging into his shoulders as she held him against
the side of a trophy cabinet. The sweet thrill came back, just a little dimmer,
just enough to allow her to end the kiss before they went further down the
hallway. "Romantic enough?"
His smile was contagious, but the humor disappeared when he put his fingers
under her chin to tilt her head up and kissed her forehead. "Don't ever
change, Buffy Summers."
Buffy caught his hand in hers, kissed the ring on it. It was okay. She could
give him everything, and he'd find a place for it in his heart. "Wasn't
planning to."
02:42 am.
ii. lines crossed
They stumbled into the wall next to the front door together, half-laughing,
half-kissing, and too much in love. They wouldn't even make it to the doorway,
much less to the couch she'd been thinking about since they had finally sneaked
out of the school. Right now, they didn't even care that there was comfortable
furniture through the door and not three yards away. What mattered was that
they didn't trip on each other, that his mouth was warm from their kisses, and
that the hands at her hips didn't show the least desire to let her go. "I
thought we'd sleep," Buffy teased him, all the while tugging the buttons
of his shirt out of their holes. "Bodies to rest, energy to replenish. We did
have an intense night."
Angel made as if to nod, but he was really bending his head to capture her
earlobe between his lips, gave it a nip and murmured against her skin,
"And we fought off a demon army before that."
She let out a delighted laugh. "Are you being funny about sex?" Her
arms rose to thread around his neck, and she brought him closer, arching her
neck to one side so more of her skin was accessible. Her next sentence was more
a gasp than actual words, but she still forced it out. Playful Angel was not a
side she got to see often, and one she relished while it was about. If she'd
known semi-public sex did the trick, she'd have searched for her adventurous
bone a lot sooner than this. She was catching up, though. After all,
technically they were still in the open. "Who are you, and what did you do
to my boyfriend?"
"You wore him out, woman." There was a rough hint in his voice, one
that usually preceded a change in his features. But the lips at her throat were
still human smooth, and there was no sharpness announcing the advent of fangs.
She was not disappointed, Buffy told herself. Before she could convince her
demanding libido, his grasp tightened, and she couldn't help the moan that
escaped her. "He had to call for a replacement," Angel whispered in
her ear, "Lucky for you I was available."
"Mmm." Was this roleplay land? Did she care right now?
"Fast delivery. Me like."
Angel laughed again. "Only the best for his girl, he said," and he
set to give her his best effort at driving her out of her mind.
Yep, they were definitely in unmarked territory. Talking about one of them as a
third person qualified as a kink. Or so she thought. Didn't it? Whatever this
was, she would ask… someone… later. Or look it up online - on a public server.
She'd die of shame if Jenny caught her, and then kill herself if Wesley learned
of her search. But that was for tomorrow; tonight Angel's hands were roaming
across her back, playing with the elastic edge of her tank top, rolling it up
to spread his hand between her bare shoulder blades and press her closer, then
snapping it back into place and soothing the sting with a coordinated brush of
his other hand between her legs. "God…."
"You like?"
He had always been the more vocal of them when it came to sex. But Buffy was a
fast learner, and more adaptable than she'd been a year ago. Grabbing the sides
of his head, she pulled him in for a hard kiss and waited until his hands
stopped their wandering and dedicated themselves to holding her in place. That
was when she drew back, licked the line between his lips before he could
protest, and smirked up at him. "Don't worry. I'll give you a glowing
review."
For a moment, he stared at her. Just when she was about to blush and stammer
her way out of their embrace, Angel hoisted her up and turned them around so
her back was against the wall and he was hovering over her. A more familiar
ground, and a favorite of his. She relaxed, and smiled back at his expression.
His eyes burned with desire, a hint of gold among the brown, but there was a
softness to the tilt of his lips, and when he kissed her, it was only a brush
against her cheek. "I love you. You're something else, you know."
Before she could answer in kind, his smile sharpened and his hands tightened at
her waist. Just like that, the atmosphere was changed. Charged. "I'm gonna
enjoy you tonight," he said - warned - before moving in for a kiss.
A familiar stranger. Under whose mercy she now found herself. Unrecognizable,
and yet the very same to whom she had surrendered long before this night.
Familiar were the hands, the mouth, the body pressing against hers. Everything
else had something of discovery in it, an overwhelming spice in his touch, a
responding catch in her breath.
There was a part of him being released tonight, and Buffy was glad it had waited
until she was ready to meet it. She clutched at his shoulder, rose up on her
tiptoes to rub her chest against his. Only the material of her top separated
them, and a corner of her mind wondered at it. Not in regret, no. But… hadn't
he been wearing something under his shirt? She clearly remembered being
frustrated with removing his jacket, sweater and button-up shirt earlier that
night: and why would a vampire wear layers, anyway? Then she'd taken hold of
that final barrier - wife beater, a white one - stripped the garment off of
Angel and tossed it…. "Oh, damn."
Bad choice of words.
All movement ceased in a blink of an eye, and Buffy was puzzled at the sudden
change of mood until she spied the contrition on his face. The next logical
step would have been to reassure him. Instead she got mad - probably hormones,
added to the appalling prospect of a piece of her boyfriend's clothing being
stuck in the school's Lost & Found box. It might be silly, but the idea
that there was evidence of her non-scholarly activities made her gut twist in
three different ways. That the one thing that would make her forget potential
disaster (what if one of her friends recognized it? What if Oz's nose caught
wind of it? What if….?) had been brought to an unexpected - and unwanted! -
end, made her snap, "Really, Angel. Do I look like I want you to
stop?"
Angel raised an eyebrow, and there was silence as he studied her. After a long
moment, his hands returned to their previous position, thank goodness. When it
became obvious that it was not his touch she'd been protesting, he chuckled.
"You got the bossy tone tonight." They kissed again, slow and gentle,
and he didn't let her deepen the contact even as his hands were burning their
way around her waist and beneath her tank top. The clasp of her bra snapped
open, and between one second and the next, they were back in the game.
"Aren't I lucky your boyfriend left specific instructions if that
happened?"
"I'm not surprised," she laughed, then bit her lower lip against an
embarrassingly loud groan when the fabric of the front of her top tore open.
Not the first time this had happened, but the glint in his eyes made her wonder
if he wasn't getting even for his lost wife beater. Then she realized it wasn't
about clothing at all, or even that she was half-naked on the porch of his
house. His pleasure stemmed from her willingness to play along.
"Is that so?" he wondered, a hand already molding against her breast,
the other helping her discard the loose bra. Buffy nodded. Her hands moved to
rake across his hair, guide him in a familiar path. His mouth was an inch away
from her skin when he continued, "May I ask why?"
"That's easy," she answered, injecting her voice with as much
confidence as possible when one was testing new waters. "My boyfriend is
very thorough."
Angel grinned at that, perhaps with too much smugness, and set to prove her
right.
03:05 am.
iii. welcome home
Buffy made a protesting noise at the back of her throat at the abruptness of
their separation. One moment Angel was kissing her, hot and one-track-minded,
and the next moment… he'd tracked away. "Angel?"
"I'll kill him," her boyfriend hissed, eyes fixed at some
point behind her.
His arms lax around her, Buffy turned around easily. Gasped at the sight. Every
bit of furniture was damaged, some more than others, wooden pieces and crashed
picture frames on the floor. It looked nothing like the organized space she and
Angel had left behind after sunset, and too much like her boyfriend's apartment
had looked like after the fire. "Oh…." If they'd let a troll loose
through the mansion, it wouldn't look any worse. "Angel. You okay?"
"I will be," he said, "After I'm done with the one who did
this."
The couch was on its back, a large greasy stain covering the cushions in a
pattern that seemed familiar to her. The remains of a kill, a part of her
recognized. In Angel's living room.
"You'll kill that?" she asked, feeling her body tense at the possible
threat. She told herself that any enemy would have had ample opportunity to
attack when she and Angel had… stalled… at the porch. A hand resting at her
elbow dissipated her doubts, a familiar sign that the coast was clear. She
might have the advantage when it came to brute strength, but Angel's senses
would always be sharper. "I think it's already dead," she found
another stain trailing away from the center of the room and towards…
"Eek!" She jumped away, even though she hadn't been standing on it.
But Angel had. He took a step to the side, following her, and looked in utter
disgust down at his shoes.
It was probably the smell that had caught his attention in the first place, and
Buffy was glad the room had aired enough that she couldn't sense anything.
Fresh demon guts were still first on her list of nauseating things. "Ugh.
This would have totally ruined the mood outside."
"I thought it was a dead rat," Angel confessed.
No wonder he'd been so keen on staying outside, and… "There are rats?"
Annoyance shifted to a hint of sheepishness. "No?" But before she
could voice her displeasure (rats were second on the list!), he found the
remains of his bookshelf. Buffy cringed - after spending time with her, his
favorite hobby was those books; often he mixed both activities, reading to her
on the now defunct couch.
Someone was gonna pay for that couch.
Angel's thoughts must have wandered down a similar road, because he closed the
distance between them, put his hands on Buffy's shoulders and pulled slightly
until she was resting against his chest.. "I will kill him,"
he said into her hair.
Buffy wanted to nod, pledge her help. But, "We're a bit late, don't you
think? It's kind of dead."
"Even before it got here," Angel agreed, now sweeping his hands down
her arms, thumbs digging into her elbows before they started their way back to
her shoulders again. "Zombie," he spat the word in distaste. Buffy
would have asked some questions, but his hands had settled into a nice,
soothing back massage, and who cared what it'd been as long as it was dead now?
"But someone killed the zombie - and left a mess behind."
"We'll catch him, honey."
"Sure we will," he said, too calmly. "He goes to your school,
after all."
Despite the number of boys at her school, Buffy immediately knew which one
Angel meant. "Xander? Xander did this?" Her anger flew away,
replaced by concern, then both were stomped in by a wave of sheer panic. Xander
and zombies? "Oh my goodness. Is he okay? Please say he's
okay."
"Oh, he's fine." He sniffed the air. "There's not enough blood
to be life-threatening…"
Buffy breathed in relief. Then realized that Angel was nowhere near as
comforted by her friend's well-being.
"…I'll take care of that."
"Angel…"
His narrowed eyes slanted towards her, and Buffy had a second to suspect he was
planning something before she was leaning into his touch. A fleeting caress up
her cheek, the fingers of his other hand brushing her waist. It was…. "I'm
not letting you kill my best friend." He tilted her head back, kissed her
as if they weren't in the middle of a very important argument, thank you very
much. "Angel," Buffy whined when her let her go to breathe,
but even she couldn't say if it was an entreaty to leave Xander alone, or to
kiss her again. He seemed to take the second option, and she didn't correct
him.
"Just a scare," he whispered against her lips the next time. His
hands were sweeping along her spine now, and it wasn't fair that Angel had been
the one to discover how much she liked that. "He owes me, Buff. He owes us."
"Only a scare," she agreed, feeling naughtier at agreeing to this than
when she'd been half-naked against the outside wall. "And only if he can't
replace the couch." She had loved that couch - she had good memories every
time she’d sat there. Xander better have a good excuse to be hanging out with
animated corpses in her boyfriend's living room! "Or if he makes a fuss at
cleaning this up."
Angel made a face. "I'm not waiting that long."
Buffy smiled, still amazed that she'd ended up with such a fussy guy. The state
of his home must be driving him crazy, poor thing. "We will not be waiting
here." This time it was she who threaded her arms around him and pulled
herself closer. She had an idea - in fact, she'd had several ideas, but they'd
been meant for the bedroom. Zombie guts; yucky, eek-y, ugh!, zombie guts was a
major turn off, but she was the Slayer, and Slayers were resourceful. Hence, a
new idea - that would facilitate the other ideas. "I'm sure Willow
mentioned the motel was nearly empty when she made the reservation for
Kendra." Angel's nose furrowed at the idea. Okay, the motel wasn't much
cleaner than this. Wesley was so cheap. "Or something better - with actual
room service." Her knuckles caressed his cheek, and Buffy smiled when he
leaned into her touch.
"Sounds expensive," he said, but he didn't seem too put off by the
idea.
All right, so Wesley wasn't the only cheap one in her closest circle, but she
wasn't in love with her Watcher, was she? "We'll splurge." And by
'we', she meant 'you'. With the grades she brought home, she was lucky if her
mom gave her enough to get into the Bronze. "Or do you want to spend the
night here?"
After a brief kiss to her forehead, and longer consideration to their options,
her boyfriend shook his head. "We're going." He shrugged off his
jacket. "Wear this."
Buffy remembered the state of her tank top. She took the jacket to cover
herself, but gave a look to the bedroom door, "I could…."
Angel shook his head again. "They got in there, too."
She trusted his nose, and if he'd sensed more zombie remains in there, then
there were more zombie remains in there. Probably with more broken furniture.
Like the dresser. Her eyes went to the shelf, the books scattered around it,
some lying on that thick yellowish stain - and she pictured the dresser and her
clothes instead. Her favorite clothes, because what was the point of
keeping a couple drawers at one's boyfriend if the best outfits wouldn't be
modelled in his bedroom?
"Forget about it," she said. "Xander's going down."
Angel zipped up the jacket around her, and grinned. "Right behind you,
love."